Thursday, March 4, 2010
Trailer Trash Confession
Sometimes I don't understand what I'm supposed to do next. I feel like my life is too complicated and too hard - its like, could I please exchange this life for a different one that is easier? I know it's ridiculous. I already live in paradise, we have nothing at all to complain about. But I'm not feeling too good today, and its largely my own fault.
I got in a fight with my husband. We were having a super busy day, both overtired & overworked. I thought he said something insulting to me (I misheard him, it turns out). But we didnt have time to sort it out. Later that night I accidentally did something he was offended by, and he told me so, and I thought he was just being mean. Then the next morning I got really mad and blasted him.
What kind of a person shouts swear words at her husband and throws his bag down the stairs? What upsets me is, this is the man that I really love. I don't really understand why he makes me so mad sometimes (about 4 times a year) and then I go and behave like someone off Jerry Springer. Its a side of myself that I really dont like.
I'm an eldest child; a high achieving, overly responsible, overly capable, perfectionistic fixitologist. And Im looking for answers...
Answers, people! What is the best way to have a marriage?
Dont get me started Wifely Duties